.jealous.

i have always been jealous of those who know the true meaning of their chinese name. let me give u a brief history about my chinese name. i do not have the chinese software so just bear with me. my chinese name is suyun. my grandpa whom i had never met gave me this name. i hate it when people address me by my chinese name. it does not suit me at all. it gives me a very poetic, quiet, sweetlooking girl feeling but i do not match any of the above mentioned qualities. omg!!! i asked my parents the orgins of my chinese name but they just shrugged their shoulders. they did not recieve chinese education back at their times. hai.. who can i turn to to seek the truth behind my chinese name?


i was asking my classmates this question the other day. we came to this conclusion. "su" suggests a simple life and "yun" suggests benefits mankind. =) i was shocked at the meaning of "yun". i did not know that my grandpa had such high hopes on me.


i am very interested to know more about my roots. maybe it is because of my undying love for history. isn't it good to know where you come from? it can help to create a sense of identity and make one feels good as one belongs to a community. i was browsing the books at TIMES bookshop at PS with goi last fri. we came across this book that has the names of 100 chinese emperors. i saw my surname. so HAPPY!!!! i did not know my ancestors were so successful that they ruled the chinese empire for 7 eras. omg! i may not be related to any of them by blood but i am very proud of my surname. when i was much younger, some of my classmates teased me about my surname as it sounds like the word "pig" in chinese.


i need to know more about myself. =)

"discovery is a pleasant journey"